Someone Like You

Dear you,

I thought I would always love you. I thought I wouldn't ever be able to go an hour without thinking of you. I thought that every time I came home everything would just remind me of you. I thought that you were always going to have that piece of my heart- you still have a place in there, my heart is just whole again. I thought I kept thinking about you because I wasn't over you, but you kept coming to my mind because, until today, I hadn't made peace with that fact that I am OK that it is over between us. Today I still love you, but not the way I did. I still love you because you have helped me become the person I am and you have helped me grow in so many ways. Some of my happiest times were with you, but some of my saddest were because of you. I thought that you still had a part of me but today I realized you don't. It feels foreign to be comfortable with my heart being whole and to think that someone who had such a big part of me for so long doesn't anymore. Today I heard you've moved on. I dreaded this day for so long. I didn't ever really think you would move on, but of course you would. Today I cried when I found out that you've moved on. Not because of the fact that you moved on, but because I was OK with it. Something that I never thought I would be ok with, I was..I am. I wish you the best of luck with everything you do. Thank you for teaching me how to love. I thought that once I "got over you" I wouldn't ever think about you, but how could I not? You were my best friend and lover for so long. You have a special place in my heart. I realized today that even though I still think of you, that doesn't mean I am not over you and haven't moved on, because I will always remember you. When you come to my mind I will think kindly of you and send positive thoughts your way. And then I will move on to my next thought.

Sincerely, me

Bow Chica Wow Wow

How I am getting through the week before finals studying my bum off...

Lots of diet coke (with a little bit of dr pepper at the bottom of the cup to make the perfect mix,of course)

Good music

Power naps

Crazy core skittles

Holding Rowan

Anticipating the Bramwell's arrival this saturday

Watching some Lost here and there with Brad (ok..more like every night)

Good chats with lovely friends

Great roomies who fold my laundry 

Working with Erika,watching people in their thick rimmed glasses and toms whipping their hair back and forth

The Starfish Story

Do you want to change the world but feel too small to do so? Me too. But really “Together we can change the world, one good deed at a time.”

I absolutely love The Starfish Story..

 One day a man was walking along the beach when he noticed

 a boy picking something up and gently throwing it into the ocean. 

Approaching the boy, he asked, “What are you doing?”

The youth replied, “Throwing starfish back into the ocean. 
The surf is up and the tide is going out.  If I don’t throw them back, they’ll die.”

“Son,” the man said, “don’t you realize there are miles and miles of beach and hundreds of starfish? 
You can’t make a difference!”

After listening politely, the boy bent down, picked up another starfish,
and threw it back into the surf.  Then, smiling at the man, he said…”
I made a difference for that one.”

Original Story by: Loren Eisley

If You Have Ever Wondered What I Mean By The Baby Mamma Oooo oooo

Oh Hey There

Life is cuh raz ee! And stressful. And boring, yet quite exciting. And great. The semester is almost over Ooo Oooo! (In a "Baby Mamma" voice-of course) I seriously am so dang excited! This semester hasn't been my favorite schooling I've ever had. I have four finals..the most I've ever had. But it's ok..it won't kill me. Once finals are over and I'm done going to Lyss', Paige's, Jord's, and Matt's graduations (yep I'm the only child still in school -other than my bro in law who is in medical school) the girls in the fam (except Paige and Ro because Paige can't stand being with us for that long..joke. You guys will be missed though.) are going on a trip to Georgia and South Carolina.(So excited) Then I move to Arizona, go to Disneyland the next day, go to Indiana to work at a conference for my dad's company the next week, then back to Arizona for the rest of the Summer. It's gonna be so busay and so fun! 

Anyhoo, I had a great Easter weekend spending time with the family. Easter helped me think of how grateful I am for The Savior and His resurrection and all that He has done for me. I want to remember that more often than I do.

I know you guys want to hear a play by play about my weekend with a bajillion pictures like a good Mormon mommy blogger that I oh so strive to be(joke..kind of) sooooo here ya go.

 Yes, I am 20 and the Easter bunny still brings me candy and I love it.

 I got to spend lots of time my wonderful sista!

 Grandpa Joe with Rowan. He was like a little kid saying "I get to hold Ro first!"-so cute. Sorry a lot of these pictures are turned.

 Look at those lips! I adore little Miss Ro.

 My dog was SO jealous of all the attention Rowan got from everyone.

 Dying Easter eggs.

 Stained fingers picture that no one is interested in I just wanted to show off my Sally Hansen nails.

 Spring has sprung down in the 801..It's trying up here in the 435 yet failing miserably. 

My dog is a gangsta.

Word Search

I do word searches on a daily basis. They relax me more than anything. justwordsearch.com is where it's at.

My Obama paper is done-YAY! I'm still holding a grudge against him though..

Miss Representation

Think about it..the media really degrades women. From music videos to magazines to billboards to your family show you watch on Mondays. There is no escaping it. But why do we put up with it? Why would we let our little girls who dream of being princesses in big castles be exposed to this? Or our little boys who think their mommy is the greatest? Or even let ourselves put up with it? I'm not a feminist by any means but I absolutely hate the way the media objectifies women.

A friend of mine (thanks Dan) shared this trailer of this documentary/movie/movement called "Miss Representation" and I was so happy to see that people are taking a stand on these issues. Check out the Miss Representation's website here. There are various screenings of the film around the United States and there may be one coming near you. The film is part of the 2011 Sundance Film Festival and has won various awards. It truly is eye opening.

If you live in Salt Lake or close by there is a screening and panel discussion for Miss Representation from 2-5 at the Salt Lake Community College South Campus in The Grand Theatre.

Warning: Negative Post

Seriously..You may not want to read this..I'm a little bit grumpy..

I am absolutely hating on Obama right now. I actually loathe him. Not because of his health care reform, or the fact that he hasn't kept most of the campaign promises he has made.. No not because he is sucking at being president right now but because I have to write a five page paper on him and the policy strategies he will most likely use for the next two years. Boooooo. How the heck am I supposed to know what strategies he will use? He's surprised us so many times already in so many ways that whatever I think he will do, he probably won't. 

Honestly, I am not informed enough to bash on him but I'm going to because I have to write this stupid paper on him. I refuse to watch one more you tube video of him giving a speech in his annoying voice that makes me want to scream. Maybe I'm just bitter because I have this essay and a final in this class and that's just plain rude of my professor? Five pages may not seem very long but when you are not into politics and let other people take care of the voting it is. (I know, I know, I should vote and be informed about who is running our country). But frankly I do not care at this point in my life. Sue me, but I think people should only vote if they are informed enough about the people who are running their plan for the nation. There should be a pre rec you have to take in order to vote because we get a bunch of uniformed people voting for the "cool" guy. I hate this paper and I'm so sick of school..the end. I'm going to find a husband and get impregnated and drop out then life would be easy. (joke)

Haters please don't comment on this post.

Disclaimer

Hey due to some comments I want to let you all know that the "sound familiar" post I posted recently had no particular names of anyone I know in the conversations..I picked random names including mine. :-)

Parlez vous francais? Konichiwa..Come and move in my way

Body Language- The Feet

I'm not siting who wrote this cause I lost the website. Sue me. 

In a nutshell, our feet point in the direction our mind wants to go.

Jiggling or Tapping

nervous gesture or bored (this is not necessarily a sign of irritation as you might sometimes hear)

Turned in your direction

 interested in you

If you are trying to influence someone, consciously point your feet towards that person.

  

Turned towards the door

lack of interest, impatient to get out (avoid this position when trying to influence someone!)

Sound Familiar?

(In passing) 
Anonymous: Hey Paul!
Paul?: Good! How are you?
Anonymous: Good how are you?
(Pass each other)
Anonymous: Is his name Paul?
Kenzi: I don't know, but that was really awkward.

*******
(In passing)

Unknown: Hi (with fake smile holding hot husbands hand with look in her eyes like "i'm so much better than you")
Unknown 2: (with fake smile that doesn't touch the eyes) Hey!

********

(Ran into each other at the grocery store..never would have seen each other other wise)
Kelsey: (In extremely fake voice) Oh my gosh! It's so good to see you!! 
Unknown: Ya you too!
Small "catch up" talk that neither person really cares about what the other is saying.
unknown 2: We should do something soon!
unknown: Ya! Like this weekend! Call me!

*******
Blah blah blah blah blah. I hate the fake, awkward, fake, forced, fake conversation that everyone has had with someone in passing. Everyone has been the fake one and everyone has been the victim. 

GOAL: Next person I see that I know I'm going to have a real conversation with. I'm going to listen to what they really have to say and be as interested as possible. TRY IT! See what happens :-)


Guess what? Get excited..I set up a Twitter acount. (Oooo oooo ooo oooo (said in an aunt Paula way)) I'm very interested in how addicted I will get and how fast. You can check out my twitters,tweeties,tweets-whatever they're called at twitter.com/kenzistaples
Today is beautiful and sunny and I love it! Opa!


P.S. I get to see this angel today..

Jealous? Ya I would be too..

Fun Fact

I thought this was interesting about body language of the head..

• Lowering one's head can signal a lack of confidence. If someone lowers their head when complimented, they may be shy or timid

•  Touching or tugging at one's ear can indicate indecisiveness

• Sincere smiles encompass the whole face (noticeable in the eyes)

• A false smile usually only engages the lips

• Tilting one's head can symbolize interest in something or someone

• Overly tilted heads can be a sign of sympathy

• Closing of eyes or pinching at the bridge of one's nose is often done when making a negative evaluation

• When a listener nods, this is usually a positive message and relays that they are interested and paying attention

• However, excessive nodding can imply that the listener has lost interest but doesn't want to be rude

• Touching/rubbing one's nose may indicate doubtfulness or rejection of an idea

• Sticking out one's chin toward another may show defiance

• Resting a hand on one's cheek is often done if they are thinking or pondering; and stroking the chin can mean the person is trying to make a decision

If It Were Looking More Like Spring Outside I'd Be Sad That I'm Sick

 

The first time I got out of bed to do anything besides go to the bathroom or get another drink since last night around midnight was tonight around 8 pm so I could come to work. Pretty sure sleep works better than any cold medicine does though. 

What Brings You Happiness?

"When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down “happy”. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment. I told them they didn’t understand life."

—

John Lennon I believe happiness is the most sought after state of mind in human beings. I am blessed to say I have found a way of living that makes me truly happy. The world and the media tell me differently. They tell me that tangible objects are the things that will make me happy. They tell us that if we were to lose ten lbs then we would really be happy. Or if we had this job, or that car, or if we were only prettier we would actually be happy. Guess what? I've tried to live the way the world has told me to and that is not what brings me happiness. What brings me the most happiness is living true to myself and the things I believe. I receive happiness through my knowledge of my Savior, Jesus Christ and the love he has for me and everyone else. Today I am happy because of the people I surround myself with. I am happy because I accept my flaws (today). I am happy because I am doing things that I love to do. I am happy because I have faith in the things I believe in. The difference between my happiness and the world's happiness is that mine actually lasts. Mine actually brings me true and lasting joy. Appreciating small things helps to bring me happiness. Like;  Watching 20,000 bouncy balls be dropped from a helicopter above a parking lot at my school. and Watching my roommate surround an annoyingly illegally parked car outside our apartment with trash cans. and Smiling at random people and watching them smile back. Do you know what truly and sincerely makes you happy?

The bed of this truck is my brain right now.

Let's Stop Missing Out on Life

"Don't give up what you truly want for the thing(s) that you want right now." -Author Unknown

This gem of a quote has helped me get through a lot of trials. I can't tell you how many times I said this to myself while going through the hardest times of my life. I even ended up painting this quote on a wall where I was living. I know when you are in the midst of a trial you feel so worn, beat up and just want to give the heck up, but when the trial is through you have gained priceless experience and growth that you could and will not get any other way..I'm sure a kabilliontrillion people have told you this same thing (hmmm maybe because it's true :) but I promise it will be worth it someday to have gone through these heartaches. And someday when you are living the life you truly want to live you will be thankful for that or this one thing that was so hard in your life to overcome because it helped you get where you are. Life is hard. Everything you do that is meaningful in your life will just plain be hard-there is no escaping that. If you want to give up on life, or on school, or on your marriage, or give up on your goals, or just stop having to go through all this hard 'stuff' (for lack of a better word) just think about all the incredible experiences you will miss out on if you do give up. If you give up you will just plain be missing out on something incredible.

"Just keep swimming."

P.S. Baby Ro says hi!

Oh Baby!

Yesterday at 3:34 my beautiful new niece Rowan Paige Staples was born. She's so precious and teeny tiny. Her mamma was a champ and both baby and mom are doing fabulously. :-) I love you little miss Ro! Welcome to the world!

 About a half hour after she was born!

The sweet little bundle of joy brought lots of family up here to Logan including my sista Lyss. (Aunt Lu Lu) So excited to play with her, go to sushi, and have a sleepover with her tonight.